Saturday, August 25, 2018
It was as if he was alive and real.
I was 13ish years old and Fell totally in LOVE with GOD
The Holy spirit came dwelling in me and the love of God
Flowed through me for about 2 or so years. Every day all day and night
I fell sleep with the feeling of great love peace and joy and woke up to it in the morning
It was I was SAVED! This happiness was pure joy and love I smiled I looked favorably on all others. I was happy I did love people differently back then. Everyone was equal and loved
I still understand this love as a intellectual thing now a days. Also I feel it at times though rare
I do love still today just in a different way. Is it more respect.
How ever one morning after my deprograming the LOVE was Gone
And I became BOOK LOST.
Yet I heard a voice that day that I put my bible down
"I will never leave you."
This was a first for me.
A voice half there
A spirit if you will
Friday, July 27, 2018
Deprogramed what is it?
Threatened perhaps with death if I ever became a Christian again.
Told many anti Christian ideals
Insist I put down my bible and not read it
This is the best I can do to understand the whole problem
And yes it’s a problem
Have someone talk to your unconscious
Then find arguments all your life over it
And I mean all your life having arguments with your sleeping state
Your dream state
Its rather crazy to think of and yes crazy to live
Bi polar manic or Ptsd?
Should be a whole new condition
Deprograming is basic sorcery
Yes the ancient secrets of wizardry
Brainwashing goes way back through the ages
Yet its refined with new pentithol drugs
Left Wing Christianity meet Sorcery wizardry
The pagan nature of man kind perhaps
Jesus people meet the antichrist
Welcome to the world of persicution
And then whom to blame?
Blame foreign powers for having such technics
I personally cant help but place blame on the extremity to the right
And I mean the extremity I find rather immoral in nature of human rights and human sufferings
German engineering perhaps on the Nazi side I might blame we can appreciated German engineered items yet people? We might wonder if Nazi culture has invaded or something
Yet really think Nazi culture? Didn’t we fight a war over this?
do I blame too much?
Is it just being of servitude?
Anyways I was missing my Bible and basically all books for 30ish years
I was like in the desert but I did nice art for a time
Book lost I was that was the main goal even though other ideas come around
I see you do cases involving the pharmaceuticals
At age 15 I was administered Sodium Pentithol
In what I call the pentithol of persicution or POP for short
What POP did to me was drive me rather mad
In essence I am bi polar manic or PTSD or both
I am sure about the pentithol and have my own understandings of what went on during my deprograming from my religion at the time which was Left leaning Christianity or Jesus people
It worked I put down my bible and continued on without it or any practice further.
I been calling this POP for a few years and have written a bit about it online
Just a few months ago I came across MK ULTRA information
I have reason to believe it might be associated with my case
How ever I have read the senate report on mk ultra and it seems to say that
Local police also had the where about to use such drugs also
I was just a innocent 15yo kid I didn’t smoke drink have sex or do any drugs of any type.
I was clean artist type with major science leanings I would study science at home in spare time
And read my bible fully every day also. I was into painting film at the time also as a art form.
I am not sure why me why did I suffer thru this event in my life? I am not sure.
Nore can I say without doubt whom was up to the deprograming. It could been anyone.
Yet MK ULTRA has answers for me in all the web searchings' I find comfort in reading that material. Anyways I have heard there is a mass tort suit somewhere on the subject and I surely wouldn’t be objecting to be a part of that. I do have feelings of civil nature being of service to my country in many ways also with that keep that in mind. Yet I feel some compensation for medical bills would be in order my counselors cost me a small fortune.
Also the operation was so covert done under the idea it was a foot surgery.
When in fact nothing was done to my foot
This happened in 1971